It’s almost midnight so I’m going to call it Thursday. Two great nights of awesome sleep….I guess the streak is over. All I can think about is how much I screwed up at work today. I had to send the same report out three times and it’s STILL not right and all I can think about is people thinking “damn the new girl is stupid” and the boss asking himself why he ever hired me. Thus I can’t sleep.
Have I told y’all about The Game of Life Circle? Maybe that will be my next video….wait….I have mentioned it in a previous video. Well last week’s action item for the group was to make flash cards with power words on them and say them often. You know I’m an overachiever right? My note cards have complete quotes and phrases on them. The first in the set says “No one looks over your shoulder when you’re the boss. So be the boss.”
I liken that to my college years when I worked part time at a Kmart. There were a BUNCH of us from school working there during the holiday season and it was horrible. I used to tell everyone that it was simply motivation to stay in school. Work is motivation to be my own boss.
I’m still waiting to hear from the organization I spoke with last month. I fully expect to hear good news from them it’s just a matter of when I’ll hear it.
I’m going to treat myself to breakfast in the morning. I can already smell it. LOL
I hope you enjoy Week’s 7 photos. I’m going to try to get some sleep and you can expect week 8 probably with week 9.
I haven’t forgotten…I’ve just had some other focuses going on. But I’m still taking pictures and having a blast. If you want to see all of the pictures individually check me out on Google+. Are you enjoying the vlogs I’m posting? I’m enjoying them a lot!
In other news I burned the roof of my mouth on some hot chili last week. It burned so bad that it has blistered and the skin is peeling. It hurts like CRAZY!
And I have a hair appointment Thursday and I am really excited to let someone else manipulate it this time.
Today is day 3. If you have never lost everything then you can’t begin to imagine how it feels to want something…anything. I haven’t seen my furniture, clothes, pictures…any parts of my life in almost 3 years. It’s been under lock and key in a storage pod. All I want right now is a home….my green couch and earthy colored rug and pictures on the brightly painted walls. A home to be settled in. I still don’t have that. Do you know those little plastic cups that hotels put on the ice bucket tray? I was pouring some wine in one once…in the hotel living years…and broke down crying because I missed my wine glasses. People take wine glasses for granted but live in a hotel with a mini fridge, microwave, and sink as your kitchen and see how much you appreciate glassware.
I have an apartment but I still don’t have a home. I still am not settled. And every day I miss my husband more and more. Through all the hard times and struggling I thought we’d rebuild together. I thought that we would get back on our feet together and that we would eventually look back on the worse, sickness, and poorer while we enjoyed the good, health, and financially stable. But instead we’re apart and every time I think of having a home it saddens me to think of one without him.
I remember the beginning back in Small Town, Oregon. We were in love and mentally/emotionally/spiritually/health wise I was in such a great place in life….WE were in a great place in life. I feel like I’ll never get back to that place. Being content in a home. Sharing space with someone you feel like you can’t live without. Becoming a part of one life together. Planning a future. Exploring dreams and passions.
See what had happened was….I forgot. I was going on about my cupcake making Friday and decided to catch up on some blogs in between and when I saw Pookah’s grinning face waving at me through the screen…I remembered.
And that’s so unfortunate that I forgot because I was so excited that I took tons of pictures this week!
Did it get any easier this week? Who defines easy or difficult? It got done…and isn’t that the only thing that matters? Of course it is. The fun part to me is watching the movie with the soundtrack added. It always fits. Here is a week through my eyes (well actually my lens).
