Had to wait for Caryn to get her book and for the behind the scenes discussion to take place.  I decided to write this today because I’m not content.  I’ve been thinking a lot about enjoying the glory that I’m in. I really have. Does anyone else find that difficult to do?  It’s truly a challenge.  Let me say this sisters….it’s not that I think there is a lot that needs improving. I just think that the few things are BIG things. Don’t you?  But who the hell wants to have a constant pity party all the time.  Well today I read Chele’s post and she said that contentment can’t come over night because discontent didn’t happen over night.

I’m bout tired of all this be patient propaganda. sigh

First Joyce…..now Chele.

I wrote in my book this week.  The chapters got a little better to me.  Actually….a lot of what Joyce is saying reminds me of things I’ve read in other books.  In Chapter 5, Joyce gives a kick in the butt to do something about feeling frazzled.  Do kicks in the butt work for y’all?  I DO agree with her statement about being the only one who can fix the fact that our day isn’t going the way we want it to.  That’s 100% true in my opinion.  “If you feel that your life is managing you, perhaps it’s time to take an inventory of what you are doing with your time, money, and talents.” I was telling TJ today that I was extremely bored today.  Okay……so I need to change what I do with my time and talents (truth be told one of my goals for 2010 is to hold on to my money better too).  Speaking of which (as I digress) I just want y’all to know that if you join the Godiva rewards club you will get a free piece of chocolate every month.  All you have to do is take your rewards card (mine is on my key chain) in to the store and they scan it and you pick your piece.  It even includes TRUFFLES!  Sister circles need to share that kinda information with each other. LOL

Back to the topic at hand.  Did y’all walk away from chapter 5 feeling like you need to re-evaluate like she suggested?  I wrote a prayer in the margins of the page. Lord allow me to make the necessary changes to get the order that I seek. It felt good when I originally wrote it but now that I read it again it doesn’t feel all inclusive.  It’s not everything I want to say.

I’m telling you….she really hit home with this chapter to me.  I underlined the section about having a hard time staying focused and women doing everything under the sun and still feeling unfulfilled.  Did y’all see the tip? (I had to go back and read the tips cause I had passed over them). Don’t fall into the trap of  feeling obligated. Isn’t that every woman’s issue!  By the time I got to the end of chapter 6 I felt like we had already covered this idea….focusing too much on yourself.  So here’s my question y’all……Joyce says “As you give of yourself to others, instead of only thinking of yourself, God will give back to you and make sure that you are an abundantly blessed woman. I have a notation here….HOW?  How does giving of myself to others bless me in a time when I am seriously in need?

So I got to chapter 7 and said FINALLY…SOMETHING I NEED.  Please Don’t Make Me Wait! Y’all know I struggles with me some patience.  I remember I used to pray for opportunities to learn to be patient.  THIS IS SOME BULL!  I change my mind.  Yep, I’m definitely of the microwave society.  I want it now!

“The Israelites felt that their lack of progress was due to having too many enemies, and I felt the same way.” Her statement following this one spoke to me.  I’ve had those thoughts too.  I remember telling somebody once that it’s a lot easier to follow your dreams when you have the wealth to pay for them.  Don’t you feel that way sometimes?  If you’d gone to a better college you’d have a better job?  If you had better parents then blah blah blah.   But the lack in progress was due to that there attitude.  Change my attitude huh?  Hmmmmmmm I read a book about changing my attitude.  Remember that TJ?  Damn…I’m starting to feel like once I finish reading a book I lose it. Hmmmm.  Chapter 7 was big on lessons of patience.

What did y’all think about chapter 8?  Talking back to the devil?  I know Caryn just got her book and she’s trying to catch up.  They’re only 2 page chapters sis….it won’t take long.

I felt good when I got to chapter 9 and she spoke about choosing faith instead of fear.  That’s a good reminder. (AT this point I know this email is long but I’ve got a lot to say).  Joyce did it with this chapter!  YOU CAN MOVE FORWARD IN FEAR! And I can.  Here’s a question (just between us of course) what is the one thing you want to do this year that you will do IN SPITE OF fear? My answer is reserved for the actual email between me and my sisters.

Love y’all and talk to you later!

~Diva