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Apr

I used to secretly giggle at people who complained of not being able to sleep when their spouse wasn’t at home.

That shit ain’t no joke!

I tossed and turned until 3:45 this morning. So that means that I slept for less than 2 hours and even then it wasn’t a peaceful sleep. Without him there beside me the bed doesn’t even feel the same. Seriously. I used to feel the same way when I lived in Oregon and he would come visit for the weekend. But now it’s even worse. I think because I still don’t have the level of familiarity with the new house as I had with the old one. That takes time ya know.

Married folks should not be forced to sleep alone dammit. LOL

I wonder if he has the same problem when he’s away from me…

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Apr

eat pray love: day 2

Diva in Demand

I left off in the story with Liz on the bathroom floor, late one night sobbing uncontrollably and praying for the first time in her life to God. This is when she speaks about her spiritual awakening. The most important thing about day 2 is my state of mind. Remember yesterday morning I declared that I am currently on a mission of growth, patience, and strength. So when I started reading today….there was some mental and emotional peace.

By the 9th pearl, Liz was beginning to embrace things that made HER happy regardless of what she was SUPPOSED to do. Her divorce has gotten completely out of hand, but she also has a sense of peace. She begins to further explore spirituality and she opens her arms to the little things that make her happy….like learning Italian. The funny part of this story for me is the conversation she had with herself about not having time to learn Italian because of her long list of “things to do”. Sound familiar?

On a journey to Bali, she gets the opportunity to meet with an Indonesian medicine man and their encounter starts a journey unlike any she has experienced before.

Once again though….in peace.

I stopped at the 9th bead……happy and content.

I feel good.

I am healthier than I was while living in Oregon.

I am physically with my husband.

I love that man something serious folks.

He loves me as much as I love him.

We’re growing – individually and as a couple.

We’re building a home.

We’re preparing for our family.

I’m realizing and recognizing dreams.

And as I closed my book and walked out of the cafeteria to come back to work (my attitude definitely sparkling through my eyes), someone stopped me and told me that my hair looks nice. This bun that I have been constantly agonizing over…..looks nice.

i’m looking forward to day 3.

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Apr

The View From The Co-Pilot's Seat

Diva in Demand

I know that my other half enjoys the freedom of the roads when driving. I can appreciate that. I personally enjoy spending time with the bum…..so when Saturday comes, I’m prepared to get up, climb up in the righ, and ride out. We get to spend time together and talk. We have some intense conversations and we laugh a lot. Every trip is more and more interesting to me.

We’ve been to Ohio, Indiana, Wisonconsin, and Michigan. We’ve hauled detergent and juice. We’ve been on major highways and small town roads. We’ve stopped at truck stops and eaten stuff on a stick.

I look forward to Saturdays in the truck…….the Mondays afterward….not so much. My entire body is sore from bouncing around like I’m in a jupiter jump. Right now my lower back and the back of my thighs are killing me. I feel like I’ve been through an intense advanced pilates class. I hurt!

Then I find out that on top of all of that, I’m sitting there being the best co-pilot I can and he’s watching me out of his side eye! Ole bum.

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Apr

eat pray love: day 1

Diva in Demand

After seeing more than a handful of people reading this insightful book by Elizabeth Gilbert on my morning and afternoon train commute, I decided that I would add it to the list of things I would be using as a meditation tool in my quest for patience and growth.

The book is written in pearls as a way of paying homage to japa malas.

A Japa mala or mala is a set of prayer beads popular in India and Tibet, commonly made from 108 beads. It is used for keeping count while reciting, chanting, or mentally repeating a mantra or name/s of a particular deity, a practice known in Sanskrit as japa.

I need to journal as I read this story. As a matter of fact, this morning I was thinking that maybe my great American novel would touch someone the way that other books have touched me. Then I asked myself when will I have time to devote to writing a novel. My list of “things to do” is massive at this point in my life. deep sigh

more…

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Apr

Maternity Care

Diva in Demand

There are some things about being married that are just soooooooooo different that they sometimes catch you off guard. Every time I interview for a job, my husband’s first 2 questions are what is the salary and do maternity benefits begin on day 1. I can honestly say that before now I have NEVER considered when maternity benefits begin or anything associated with it. But NOW I find myself including that in my benefits search when I’m going through initial information to decide if I have any questions or need to negotiate anything in my contract. My list includes general health care, inpatient services, outpatient service, prescriptions, maternity care, well baby/well child preventive care.

It has become second nature for me all of a sudden. I find myself doing it instantly.

ps…..Aly cat – you can’t comment on this one. Every time we talk about babies you start dropping hints and hoping that we get blessed with a brood like yours. LOL

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